I am not happy - I realized suddenly last night. It occurred to me that I am not striving to remain present, to be myself, in order to be myself. I do it to not fall, to not identify with my mind, to not merge with … whatever. I do it out of fear, I [...]

I got a phone call from Brooks last night. He called me to tell me that I am loosing my God presence. He said it was something about the way I live.
We talked about it, I said: usually when I loose myself my life collapses also, becomes very narrow, I get really focused on a [...]

It took me much longer than usual to write another post. I’ve been … preoccupied… for the last two weeks, finishing a job for a client from hell. I am designing and producing a website for him, have been doing it for last 4 months. Four months is a loooooong time to create a website.
The [...]