I had a strange day yesterday. I was dealing with a lot of trauma coming up, childhood stuff, right in my face. It was very intense and hard to stay present with. It felt like being in a room fool of crying, yelling, babies. Can’t leave the room, can’t ignore it, can’t shut them up [...]

As I thought about the project all of a sudden it hit me - why would we try to make Zen “practical”, make it “useable” in the “real life”?

In fact, I realized, this is what I was trying to do for nearly all my years of being a “spiritual practitioner” of one sort or another. This was actually quite a big issue for me: I would have the wonderful practice, whether it was Zen or my work with Brooks, I would grow and develop … and my life still wouldn’t work!

What does one do with a conflict in relationship? How do they happen and why? How is it that people get angry, resentful or hurt without knowing why, stay that way for no apparent reason, in a middle of it all forget what even happened at the beginning?
Relationships were always a mystery to me. Why [...]

I heard yesterday that I don’t do what I say I do. That I don’t act in alignment with who I say I am, with how I say I think and relate. I heard that I say one thing and then do quite the opposite.
I was angry. I felt judged, accused, misunderstood, not received, not [...]